A day that started off sad but ending in joy.
I failed my driving test again. My second try and some of you guys might know i was really upset. Dont really know why i was so upset, why i was frustated and why i even cried. Isnt it really silly? Upon reflection, I reprimand myself for being such a silly tweerp. but at that moment, i was upset and nothing could comfort me as i began to realise the need to spend more money on driving, more time and effort on doing things which I already know and have done. and i feel bad for letting my driving instructor down. Mr Ng is really a good instructor. An optimist in all aspects, he teaches me to drive defensively. I have argued with him sometimes when he picks on me more than i can bear but i know its for my own good. He has more faith in me than i do. Both times, he tot i would pass but than, i always shock him by coming out with boo boos. oh well.
But the beautiful part of this day was the care i got from pple, who showed my God's love for me. let me explain. Mr Ng couldnt send me back to bedok interchange cos he got anothe student to pick up so i took a bus back to bedok interchange. (he offered to wait for me but i paiseh already) When i got to the interchange, i decided to go to parkway to drown my sorrows in mos burger ice milk tea (which always makes me happy) so there i went , to wait for the bus. Still upset and a little stoned from crying on the bus, i sat down on the bench situated between the 196 and 197 bus line. while stoning and trying to reply pple's msgs, this really sweet muslim lady asked if the seat next to me was vacant and i said yes. Wasnt in the mood to strike up a conversation with her so i just smiled my usual smile and prepared to go back to stoning.
she surprised me by initiating a conversation with me, asking me first about whether 196 goes to parkway and how she was waiting for her friend to arrive. and in that short period of time, i found out that she was a retired school teacher with 35 years of full time teaching in her bag. and an additional 5 years of relive teaching. even now in her seventies, she sometimes goes back to teach. I asked her whether she taught only Malay and she said no, she also taught PE and english. on top of that, she was telling me how she still ran with the students when she relieve teach. Wow, i was impressed.
a vibrant lady, she held the conversation well with me and i really had a good time as i waited for my bus and she waited for her friend. For that portion of time, she made me forget about the driving test and it lifted up my spirits immediately after that as i boarded the bus. God knew and he brought her alongside. Some of you might be convinced that, 'aiyah, coincidence lah' but i choose not to. =)
not only that, after the test, i decided i needed to just take the rest of the day off and sms my boss to said that i will be taking leave. He was really kind and he gave me the rest of the day off. Thanks p'sy! really grateful =)
also, thanks to all you guys and gals who tried to console me. =)
oh! and to those in the office who sms me, thank you thank you! really feel loved, by your sms of encouragement. =) Thank you for 'sayang-ing' me...
I'm better. and haha i know, jus do again. most prob just now savvy enough (girl also mah)
You know this day started out blue but at the end of the day i feel new (cheesy i know), for God brought to my life today angels in the form of you guys. =)
A little tip and advice, simple little gestures of care and concern can go a long way. who knows when you will be an angel to someone else. =)
Just like this song:
angels in Disguise by Corrinne May
I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed
and dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'
But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea
But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places,
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new.