Thursday, June 23, 2005

heyz!

Haven been blogging the past 10 or more days cos i have been away. came back on the 21st of june @ like midnight and have been down with fever and flu since than. Haven seen singapore yet, only the journey from the airport to my home, only stepped out of my front door to the porch this afternoon to do my fav pastime, trying on shoes (my own, since i cant get out). How's everyone?

I'm really glad to be home and i thank God for a really eye-opening trip i had with my church friends. We went to help out at a youth centre conducting english workshops for secondary school students as well as pre-u students. it was really fun and we made lots of friends!

you know, everytime i am away from home it makes me realise how fortunate i am to be living in Singapore. Everytime i touchdown at Changi Airport i am extremely happy!
Our airport is extremely beautiful!!!!! so clean, so nice smelling, so pleasant, so beautiful. =)


Till another post. head is still a little throbbing.

Got this from my friend dotz check it out: http://www.donghaeng.net/english/footprint/footprint.swf

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Has been a long time since my last post here, apologies everone.

The past week or so has been busy with mission trip preparation heightening till today. After church, it was packing, packing and more packing of books and cds. We have a grand total of 200kg worth of books and cds to bring up on wed! Phew.

The past week, has been busy with meetings almost every night, and today the feeling for me was really a little tight. Everyone has been tired from all the practices and this morning, i think my tongue spoke faster than my thought processing @ 8 in the morning and i did something which i regreted the whole day. sigh.

Made my day bad all the way till the afternoon... Slept afternoon nap and woke up feeling really sticky cos of the heat and decided to go for a swim to destress and talk to God.

It was while waiting for the elusive 853 @ the busstop at my place that God reminded me that not everything is bad. While, trying to cheer up after a bad day in general, i recognised a familiar face in the car on the road. It was my friend James from YAM on his way to dinner with his family. He rolled down his window, said hi and asked me where i was going and whether i needed a ride.

I was shocked by his generosity. And just said its okay i was going to parkway. Than his dad said no problem and to hop on. I was extremely grateful for that simple gesture which made my day good again. I am thankful for these little suprises in the day.

He even sent me to Chinese Swimming Club cos he said it was on the way... and he knew where it was since they were members there too!

Came home, happy and feeling so much better after a swim, i read archie comics to relieve stress.. =) and gen sent me a picture of the rose i gave her for friendship day which reminded me how important friendshipa are, bringing the events of today back into my thoughts agian.

Sunday, June 05, 2005

Down with flu due to the weather and lack of rest but really happy how things are going with mission trip. I woke up at like 0545hr today to send the TURT team off this morning! It was really a huge team with a lot of farewell wishes arriving at the airport even though it was really early and many had to rush back to church after that.

After sending them off, it was off to church for frontiners, service and mission trip practice in that order. Haven been feeling too good since yesterday afternoon and it broke into a major flu bug today. I just took a clarinas which will hopefully really be effective.. it's anti-histamine propoerties would work.

Practise today went really well today and we are really get to bond with another, cracking silly jokes and supporting one another as we rush to get ready for the mission trip we will be embarking next week. It's just 9 of us + 2 so getting to know one another on a more one to one level is easier than a larger group. =)

Pls keep us in prayer! =) 15th - 21st June 2005.

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

勇气 (梁静茹)

终于作了这个決定 別人怎么说我不理
只要你也一样的肯定
我愿意天涯海角都随你去
我知道一切不容易
我的心一直温习说服自己
最怕你忽然说要放弃

爱真的需要勇气 来面对流言蜚语
只要你一个眼神肯定 我的爱就有意义
我们都需要勇气 去相信会在一起
人潮拥挤我能感觉你 放在我手心里
你的真心

如果我的坚强任性 会不小心伤害了你
你能不能温柔提醒 我虽然心太急
更害怕错过你

Courage (Fish Leong)

Finally made the decision, I won't listen to what other people say
As long as you are also just as certain
I know it all won't be easy
My heart is always brushing up on convincing itself
I'm afraid that you'll suddenly say you want to give up

Love really needs courage to face gossip and rumors
As long as certainty is expressed in your eyes, my love has meaning
We all need courage to believe we'll be together
In a crowded stream of people I can feel you
Putting all your heart into my hands

If my adamant headstrong ways will hurt you accidentally
Can you gently remind me? Although my heart is too anxious
I'm more afraid of passing over you
INDIFFERENCE (Written By Jaq Tay)


Often i have my own itinerary
Have my own opinion, that's my usual doing
Don't need you to come in, don't want you to tell me
Don't want you to infringe, don't you mess with me
But then wait a moment, I may need you I think
I'm beginning to see, I'm beginning to sink
It's still a better deal than a heck-care attitude


To know you
To have you by my side
I need you
I want you by my side


Faith is believeing what you cannot see
Can you see the wind, can you see what love is
Faith is taking a step, might turn out to be the best
Compared to strictly no quest, never at rest


Most people like to feel they are in control of things when things go well, we dont think we need anybody else. But too often, many things in life just dont go the way we want when things get out of hand, can we still remain indifferent to help or should we just admit we need someone who knows what's best and is in control?

Monday, May 30, 2005

Thai Showcase @ glory presbyterian + Celebration Sunday @ Expo

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Random thoughts on a beautiful morning

1.
Just this morning, i was doing my quiet time and read this:

"There is a time for everything
and a season for every activity under heaven:
a time to be born and a time to die
a time to plant and a time to uproot
a time to kill and a time to heal
a time to tear down and a time to build
a time to weep and a time to laugh
a time to mourn and a time to dance
a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them
a time to embrace and a time to refrain
a time to search and a time to give up
a time to keep and a time to throw away
a time to tear and a time to mend
a time to be silent and a time to speak
a time to love and a time to hate
a time for war and a time for peace" --- Ecc 3:1-8
As i thought about it, indeed there is a time for everything.
2.
on my way to lunch with my dad @ siglap, we saw my previous family doctor, Dr Wong, already in his 80s but still practicing medicine in his clinic. He is really experienced and the fastest doctor i've been to. Each time you go to him, he spends only less than 8 mins with you to determine your illness and he doesnt give you antibiotics cos it only lowers your immunity to future recurrances. At his age, instead of staying at home, he chooses to continue his practice to keep his mind active and from degrading over the years.
3.
Was reading an article in Female magazine entitled, "I'm creating ... ... the perfect woman". It's about a Singaporean guy (rich kid) who created his dream girl with plastic surgery and english lessons. She is a thai-chinese gal who comes from a village which is a two-hour bus ride away from Bangkok. I quote from the article:
"When i met her, she was a plain Jane," he points out gleefully. "Now, she's me dream girl. She speaks good English and has a pretty face, a well-endowed figure and dresses well. She's perfect."
The self-confessed control freak is looking for a perfect girlfriend. In 3 years, he has spent more than S$25,000 on improving his Bangkok-based girlfriend.
things he has done to date:
1. personal grooming classes
2. English classes (~ $500)
3. $6000 worth of pub gear and makeup (taking time off to watch her parade dress after dress for his approval)
4. $5000 to sharpen her nose
5. $6000 for breast enhancement
The article goes on to say that Singaporean woman are "not his type" for he doted on his previous girlfriends but they became too demanding. And he chose his present girlfriend cos she's simple in taste.
By this portion, i was feeling sick and sad for this guy. This article was scary if not anything else. Are Singaporean woman really that demanding? I believe as girls, we all want guys to love us for who we are. We are created, unique in God's eyes. Every part of our physical appearance made to order by Him. Why should it be drastically changed just for the fancy of others? What happened to loving us for who we are externally and internally.
Lets continue with the article:
This 1.8m tall guy works out three times a week, spends a fortune on expensive shirts and skincare and other grooming products on himself. According to the article, he would not be considered handsome by most women's books, "but there's nothing wrong with me what" he says confidently.
wow. taking everthing written in the article with a pinch of salt, (cos it is afterall a female magazine and might be just quite a bit biased) this guy is really extreme and insecure.
Most probably such guys are one in a million, but it seems that plastic surgeons say it isnt.
i am not trying to put down you guys cos i believe i do not know any guy who is this extreme. But it is really disturbing thats all that such things exist.
Restringing the guitar

Today, i learnt something new. I learnt how to restring a classical guitar. It's pretty easy once you get the hang of it, the only irritating thing being that because they are nylon strings, they require some time to fall properly into the right tension. Hence you can tune them patiently and get them all perfect. But when you play a song, in 2 mins flat it all goes out of tune again. every single string.. urgh. Frustrating. Hope it stablises soon though.

Met some of my mission trip mates this evening just to work out the english program and watch american idol. I am glad i joined them tonight instead of going home as i really enjoyed myself just throwing out ideas, laughing at one another, cracking silly jokes.

it is amazing how we are all getting to know one another so much better. I'm glad.

Monday, May 23, 2005

TURT + Thai staff + STINT + mission trip

Haven been blogging for a while cos of my committment to help out @ the Ultimate Road Trip training the past two weeks. isnt it funny that i blog more when i am busy studying when i am in my holidays?

The experience has been short of amazing! Meeting up with the thai staff once again, P'Puu, P'Nutti, P'Ning, P'Jan, P'Nuk and a new thai stinter Ake was really fun and brought back beautiful memories of my previous mission trip. Just hanging out with them, talking to them has been a wonderful experince as they are just lovely people. Easy going, caring and unpretencious.

Recently, i also realised how blessed i am, that often i guess i have taken my family for granted. I zoom in and out of the house, seldom ever helping my mom clean our huge house (thats why its kindda of dusty all the time) Wish i was more discipline to help out. More domesticated sometimes, so that all this will come naturally but i just hate cooking, and doing household chores.

Just this evening, i came home and wanted to cook chye poh egg for dinner since i wasnt really very hungry. so i asked my mom where it was and so on. As i was preparing the ingredients she called out from the dining table that i needed to wash the chye poh first. and for everything that i know, i coudnt figure out how i was to wash shredded tiny pieces of chye poh under water (so i am a little dumb). I called for help and my mom said this, "see lah, always dun observe how i do it when i cook." haha.

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

Finding Neverland + A day of walking shopping centres + Kingdom of Heaven

After a lazy morning, i watched finding neverland on dvd which is a really good show (teared many times so its good) and at 2 on a rainy afternoon i went to Parkway to buy some necessities and to just do some window shopping.
Shall not bore you all with the stores and what they had in there and the good and bad sides of pple i saw while in shops... ...

After parkway, i continued on to Tampines to check out the new revamped place followed by dinner and movie with my B&S bible study mates. Okay lah the show, a little slow at the front, picks up later on.

Monday, May 09, 2005

A arm aching experience

Today has been an extremely fun but tiring day.
1. the Thai staff are here! it's so great to see them all again. Phii Puu, Nutti, Jan, Ning, Nuk and this new guy called Egg (spelled some other way but pronounced this way) I practised my thai with them and they were so happy that i could speak thai that they kept on giving me pointers and stuff. They are really such lovely people, it's so great that they are here in singapore!

2. Looked after little Zechariah Noel Seow today. He's is a totally adorable little boy i had the pleasure of babysitting this afternoon while Lillian had to teach a session at TURT. He laughs at everything, smiles at little things and just makes your day. From this fort, i respect mothers tremendously. after a few hours of carrying him and trying to make him sleep, my upper left arm is aching badly... a kindda sore feeling that is close to trobing. but its worth it. i am in awe of mothers for their arm strength and how they carry their children effortlessly. God gives them that extra muscle tone in their arms for this ability upon the birth of their child must be! Though he was very grouchy at the last portion of my charge he still is one cute baby!

Thursday, May 05, 2005

REFLECTION (Mulan)
Look at me
You may think you see who I really am
But you'll never know me
Ev'ry day
It's as if I play a part
Now I see
If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight
Back at me?
Why is my reflection someone
I don't know?

Somehow I cannot hide
Who I am
Though I've tried
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
Finishing up my studies in NUS after 3 years in the Clementi campus today was a bitter sweet feeling. It finally sank in when i was in the spotless ladies in the Arts side today that the same time next year, i will no longer be a student.

for weeks, people have been asking me how i feel about graduating, about doing my 1 year STINT, leaving my education life behind, treading onto this new path i am about to take. Honestly guys/gals, i didnt have a single clue cos it just didnt register.

But now, it does. The grass is always greener on the other side and i guess this is one of those times when the times at which i struggle through endless lab reports and labourous hours of slogging through names of genes and gene products trying to remember which one was regulated and inhibited by which promoter and substarte respectively. They all vanished from my mind and the only thing i could think of is how much i would miss this carefree life of a student. every single step after that was filled with nice thoughts of school.

haha. so silly of me.

To a totally different topic altogther. (wanted to blog this for a long time) Have you ever watched the movie iRobot? it stars Will Smith as the lead and its about the future where for every 5 human beings there will be 1 robot. In it, everything seems so "in the future", where it does not exist today. but one little point in the first part of the movie is very real today. There was this background advertisment that the scene showed about this shop sold transgenic "glow fish" NOW that is not a thing of the future but a thing of the present. Transgenic fish for ornamental purposes are present in the market today. You can check them out at the url below:
http://www.glofish.com/

I made my very own fluorescence transgenic fish once last semester and it was kindda cool but a little funny playing God in this way. check out the website if you are truly bored, and next time pay more attention to little details in the movie. =)

Saturday, April 30, 2005

Sniffles Concerto in A minor Op 305

Today, in the science library was the world premier of the sniffles concerto in A minor Op 305. It is a 20th centuary piece of work composed soley on the sniffles or sinuses that the musicains have. It is truly avantgarde as the composition is entirely dependent on the rhythm and timing of the soloist. It is the first time such a composition has made it to the centre stage in singapore, marking a new era of music in Singapore. it was however not well received as the 2 soloist were not in time with one another. However, fluidity of the whole piece was seen throughout the piece.

Look forward to next year around this time of the year as they will be staging their second piece of work in D minor Op 2006.

=) i'm just crapping. Ignore me. Exams have turned my brains to mush..

p.s. while updating my photos, i realise i have a lot of cute girls in my cutie pie folder but only one little boy. so if anyone has any, do show it to me for my determination of his/her cute factor.

Thursday, April 28, 2005

oh my gosh! there are 5 seasons to Gilmore Girls. Gilmore Girls is this series about a mother and daughter and their wacky relationship they have. They live in this really small community where everyone knows everyone and everyone is kindda unique and funny in their own way. Singapore is currently showing season 4 everyday at 5pm but i think today was the last one.

But i cant catch it anyway..

Heard 童话 today by 光良. if you haven heard it go listen to it or watch the mtv. here's the link.

http://forum.lowyat.net/lofiversion/index.php/t127835.html


忘了有多久,在没听到你,对我说你最爱的故事
我想了很久,我开始慌了,是不是我又做错了什么
你哭着对我说,童话里都是骗人的,我不可能是你的王子
也许你不会懂,从你说爱我以后,我的天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信 相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

你哭着对我说,童话里都是骗人的,我不可能是你的王子,
也许你不会懂,从你说爱我以后,我得天空星星都亮了

我愿变成童话里你爱的那个天使,
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信相信我们会像童话故事里
幸福和快乐是结局

我要变成童话里,你爱的的那个天使,
张开双手变成翅膀守护
你你要相信,相信我们会像童话故事里,
幸福和快乐是结局

我会变成通话里你爱的那个天使,
张开双手变成翅膀守护你
你要相信,相信我们会像童话故事里,
幸福和快乐是结局哦,一起写我们的结局。
It is officially 2 weeks in the sci library, day in day out. go in the day, come out in the night. I am really really sick of the library. Suffering from too much studying and nothing else syndrome. everyone in the library really need to get out more often. everyone have been telling me, persevere! it's your last exams! hanging in there.. losing steam at a rapid speed. i think i have a leak somewhere.
Current Daily Reading: Purpose Driven Life By Rick Warren

for the past week and the next 6 weeks or so, a group of us will be embarking on the Purpose Driven life series. It's about finding your purpose in life. What's the purpose of your life? what are you made for?

This week, the focus is on fellowship. We are called to belong to a group of like-minded believers. We are told to be:

1) authentic
2) encouraging
3) honest
4) speaking the truth out of love
5) supportive
6) forgiving
7) humble
8) respecting differences
9) not gossip
10) make meeting up a priority.

Genuine fellowship is rare, it means giving up our self-centredness and independence in order to become interdependent.
It's a difficult task.

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

今天我在学校图书馆里时, 听了93。3 , 真是好久没听93。3了啊!真有趣,大多数的点歌原因是为了表达个人对某某人的爱,可是没胆量向某某表白。或是想念望年的爱情, 听了xx那首歌而想起了他/她。其实,我听了真想笑,为何这些人会用radio来表达心意呢?您不觉得有点没成意吗?

若您也想听,您只许要听93。3 ,最情频道, 就能够听到了。
今天我为何突然用华文来写呢?
原因应该是整天的华语歌吧!

Friday, April 22, 2005

DAY 13 - Purpose Driven Life
God wants your ALL of you. All of your Heart, All of your Soul,
All of your Mind, All of your Strength.
You're the Lover of My Heart
All I want is to see your face
All I need is a moment of grace
It's in You
that I have the faith
To stand up and be strong
Cos I know I'm no longer bound
It's in You that I have found
Peace of mind
Freedom from my sin
And the power to love and forgive
I want to walk with You
Every day of my life
To talk with You
In the good and the strive
You're my friend you're my Father
For all time
Nothing can keep us apart
You're the lover of my heart

Thursday, April 21, 2005

Are all Dad's hot tempered?

i was doing one of my favourite pastimes again today in the Sci canteen, stoning and listening to other people's converstaions when i overheard this conversation about Dads.
3 of my lifescience classmates were taking a break from their studying and they were talking about how their dad's had really hot tempers.

This got me wondering about my dad. does he have a hot temper? I thought about it and i came to the conclusion .... NO.

Well, my dad, he's like no other. He is really mild tempered, easy going. You will never hear any vulgarities from him even when he is really angry and upset. He will just make some noise and be disgrunted but i dun rememeber him being hot tempered, losing his cool.

He is also quite radical i must say. Very different from normal Singaporean or even Asian dads who are a little more reserved, quiet, the disciplinarian. He is the one who brought me to the zoo, musicals etc since i was young. Not bad eh?

he has a pet name for me, "gracie" which i must say is awfully irritating. Somehow when others say it sounds terrible. But i guess i gotten used to him calling me that that anything else (like 'grace') sounds funny comin from him.

just like my aunt who doesnt call me 'grace' either.

So back to the topic. Are all dads hot tempered? mine is not. how about yours? my sample size stands at 3 . place a comment to tell me k?

I'm currently bored in the library trying to get rid of my headache.

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

i tried to write something today. but i couldnt. made me realise i haven become as transparent as i wanted to be. kept on pressing the backspace button.

to cherie and gen: went to go my advice theory last week. hopefully i pass.